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The Art of Running in the Rain

"To give anything less than your best, is to sacrifice the gift." -Prefontaine

Advent of Activities Part I – 2018

Ever since Mira was born I’ve been on a kick for family traditions. I received an e-mail from the PEPs foundation discussing the importance of traditions and recommending this book. After reading through it I was hooked on the idea of creating as many traditions with my family as possible.

Last year I started our “Advent of Activities” and even with a six month old it was a blast, so it has stuck. The nice thing about this type of advent calendar is that the prep work is moderate up front but then the rest is cake. In early-mid November I spend about two-three hours researching events and activities happening in Seattle during the holiday season and I enter them into my google calendar. Once I’ve got the timing worked out (e.g., dates of activities/events and our schedule) I write them down on little pieces of paper and put them in our advent calendar.

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One of the pictures from last year (we went to the Seattle Center to see the little village and decorations).

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I decided I’m going to go over the first half of our advent calendar with you guys and then follow up with the second half in an upcoming post.

December 1st – West Seattle Christmas Tree Lighting. Unfortunately I couldn’t be here for this one, but Dave and Mira attended without me and had a blast.

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December 2nd – Coffee Shop Date With Papa.

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December 3rd – Christmas Ornament. Mira loves Moana so we hung a new ornament on the tree.

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December 4th – Christmas Stocking. Mira was super excited to see her stocking for the first time.

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December 5th – Christmas Treat. This one was more for me because Dave was on a sugar strike and Mira doesn’t really eat sugar.

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December 6th – Treat With Mama. Mira and I went to Bakery Nouveau and enjoyed a yummy and entertaining date.

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December 7th – Christmas Carolers in Westlake Center. This one has been my favorite so far. Mira loves music and she was sooooo into all the singers. Everyone did such a great job.

 

December 8th – Greenlake Pathway of Lights. Unfortunately this event was a bit of a let down. It was nice to be able to take Oliver with us, but it was so crowded I thought Oli was going to get trampled. Although, It was amazing to see a hot air balloon in the middle of Seattle.

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December 9th – Cookie Decorating. Mira enjoyed a frosting-less cookie (**Me: Mira doesn’t eat sugar. Also me: Here, have this cookie Mira**), but I enjoyed the cookie decorating. It was my first time making royal icing and I was pretty proud.

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December 10th – Christmas Socks. Mira and I went to pick out socks, we had a conference and decided that because her and I already had enough socks, and Dave was in need of socks, we would donate our pairs to him. It was really cute when I asked her “Should we just get papa a bunch of socks?” and she shook her head ‘yeah.’ Already so thoughtful.

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December 11th – Walk With Mama. Sometimes when it’s cold out we can forget to enjoy the outdoors, so I like a good reminder to get outside.

December 12th – Bellevue Garden D’lights. This was absolutely beautiful! I’m sharing two pictures because not only were the lights awesome, but the gingerbread display gave me serious cookie decorating envy!

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December 13th – Coffee Shop Date With Mama & Papa.

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It’s been so much fun so far and I can’t even wait for some of the events that are to come.

Oh, and in case you were wondering just how deep the Moana love is…(don’t judge my attempts at singing this song…I think my voice is a little tired from belting it out).

 

Merry Christmas!!!!

Be well.

Vegan & Gluten-Free White Bean & Kale Soup

It’s the time of year when soup sounds amazing to me ALL the time. The temperature has been in the low 30s in Seattle, and although I know there are places that are much colder, it’s just down right frigid for this PNW girl. So soup it is.

I think I mentioned this already on the blog, but during my pregnancy with Mira my body started craving meat. It was a shock to my system to crave meat after 13 years of not eating any; however, I felt I needed to listen to my body. It was a real Pheobe moment.

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Oddly enough during this pregnancy I haven’t craved meat as much, as a matter of fact at times it repulses me. I think the ups and downs of this are really playing with Dave’s emotions; however, he is super supportive no matter what.

We’ve been playing with a variety of vegetarian recipes, but like I said, lately I’ve been craving soup. For this recipe I took inspiration from Jillian Michaels’ app and made a few modifications. It is extremely tasty – Mira gives it two arms up (she’s not quite doing the thumbs yet, and most food ends up on her head). I also think it would make a great freezer meal, which is a great thing to learn about during pregnancy.

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This soup was a big hit with the whole family (Mira has had two big bowls – yay for toddlers eating vegetables).

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The recipe is vegan, gluten free, and high in protein, which is awesome because it helps this pregnant lady feel full.

I’ve been craving the heat throughout this pregnancy, and what I love to add to this dish is my nonna’s peppers. I haven’t tried my hand at making these peppers yet, so I will cherish this jar until it is no more. Dave and I are pretty excited to give it a shot and I’ll let you know how it goes.

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A little bit goes a long way when it comes to nonna’s hot peppers, so watch yourself.

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White Bean & Kale Soup

  • Servings: 6-8
  • Difficulty: easy
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Vegan, Gluten-Free, White Bean & Kale Soup.

Inspiration: Jillian Michaels

Ingredients

  • -2 tbsp apple cider vinegar
  • -1 tbsp lemon juice
  • -1 head of kale
  • -1 bunch of fresh spinach
  • -4 tbsp olive oil
  • -black pepper to taste
  • -salt to taste
  • -4 cloves of garlic
  • -7 cups of water
  • -2 Knorr vegetarian bouillon cubes
  • -1 large carrot thinly sliced
  • -1 yellow onion diced
  • -1/2 cup of white wine
  • -2 tbsp of fresh thyme
  • -6 ribs of celery thinly sliced
  • -1 (15oz) can of butter beans
  • -2 (15oz cans of cannellini beans

Directions

  1. Heat olive oil in a large pot, combine garlic, celery, onion, and carrot. Cook for about 10-15 minutes or until the aromatics have become translucent.
  2. At this point add the white wine and cook until mostly evaporated.
  3. Add water, beans, kale, spinach, and spices. Once this comes to a boil add the vegetable bouillon and stir until completely dissolved. Once this occurs reduce heat to low and allow to cook for 40-45 minutes.
  4. To finish the soup add apple cider vinegar and lemon juice.* Allow to simmer until ready to eat.

*if you prefer a smooth soup at this point you can slowly blend portions of the soup by 1.5-2 cups at a time.

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I highly recommend that you make this soup to get you through the cold winter months!

Be well.

A Few Phrases My Therapist Said

I recently read the article “The Most Important Phrase My Therapist Taught Me” and it struck me for a few reasons. I’m happy that I’m seeing more pieces being written that normalize seeing a psychologist. My hope is that one day we will all regularly check in with therapists as often as we do regular practitioners. Additionally the article reminded me of the many phrases my therapist said to me which have helped me so much in the last eight years.

First I want to share with you my therapy journey. It was 2010 and I had just graduated from grad school, I was having a hard time feeling fulfilled, both in my job and in my relationships. I was often paralyzed by important choices and would rely on others to help me make them. When I did make the choices (even with the help from others) I felt very anxious afterwards. I noticed some recurring patterns in both the situations and the people that gave me anxiety and I decided that something needed to be done.

**As a side note, I think all my life I was trying to find a fix for my anxiety, when I was in elementary and middle school it was food, when I was in high school it was disordered eating, when I was in late highschool/early college it was drugs/alcohol, and throughout college it was a mix of exercise/disordered eating. I don’t think all of my outlets were negative, but I think more often then not untreated psychosis (which can be more common than we think) ends up being self-medicated.**

At that point I decided to search for my psychiatrist through my insurance website and I found someone who had experience with anxiety, specifically OCD, which I felt was something I demonstrated. Initially, it was very important that I see him consistently (weekly) for the first six months, there’s research to support the effectiveness of this regularity. I continued to see him regularly for a few years in addition to taking anxiety medicine. We eventually decided to decrease medication (after two years of use) and over the course of the next three years I slowly decreased the amount that I saw my therapist. I no longer see my therapist, but I know he’s just a phone call away, and if I needed help and he was no longer practicing I would look for another therapist.

This leads me to some of the phrases my therapist said that have stuck with me. When I first met my therapist he said:

“Anxiety can be like the static on a radio, I’m not here to take it away, but I’m here to help you turn it down”

I think of this when I’m feeling down that I still have anxiety. Being a person with anxiety is not a bad thing, but we can make it a bad thing in our minds. If it isn’t debilitating us, then sometimes we can ‘just have anxiety’ and that’s okay.

“It’s a disappointment they can handle”

This is something that I remind myself on the daily. I have a really hard time when I think I might let people down, anger someone, or disappoint them. So much of my anxiety has come from thinking ‘I’ve done something wrong.’ This simple phrase he taught me has made me able to make choices in life that feel good for me and line up with morals and not constantly worry about the people I care about being mad at me for it. In addition I started following Nayyirah Waheed on instagram and she has had a few quotes that inspire me, including this one:

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“When you stop seeing a therapist it doesn’t go away, you take all the work you did with you”

I remember feeling anxious about the fact that we were moving to California and that I wouldn’t be able to see MY therapist. We had multiple conversations about it and this was ultimately the phrase that I returned to when I worried about it.

There were so many invaluable conversations my therapist and I had throughout the years and I reflect on them often. The last time I experienced a debilitating anxiety attack was in 2011. I continue to have occasional anxiety, as I probably will for the rest of my life, but I never feel out of control like I once did. I would say that I will never be able to thank my therapist enough for his help, but I’d also have to thank myself because I made the choice to call him, make the appointments, and do the work.

Be well.

 

 

 

Mira’s First Trip To Disneyland

Well in the bittersweet way that life often happens we found ourselves in Southern California last week when Dave’s grandma passed away. We spent the majority of time in Los Angelos, but we made our way down to Orange County on a couple of occasions, one of those occasions being Disneyland. I’m going to write a more detailed post about some of my favorite places in southern California (I’ve been meaning to do that since we lived down there), but for now let me tell you about our trip to Disneyland, or as I like to refer to it, Mira’s first trip to Disneyland. I was slightly apprehensive to go to Disneyland with a child under 5, but that was before I found myself 40 minutes away from Disneyland. That. Changed. Everything.

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Some of you may have agreed with my initial sentiment (especially those of you who have knowledge of child development….man, the skill set they expect you to have at Disneyland….patience, delayed gratification, etc….I know adults that don’t have that shit), but Mirabella had one of the best days of her life. I’m not even talking about how excited/happy she was, I’m talking about minimal-upset, falling asleep on dad, riding five rides and not being afraid of any (even the witch on Snow White, who was my dad’s biggest fear for a large part of his childhood).

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So now I’m of the mindset that it really depends on the child, I even think you could have an infant that would be good to go in Disneyland (as long as you have someone to watch them while you ride ALL the rides). One of my all time favorite rides is Pirates of the Caribbean, and this time the ride was even better! Mira spent the entire ride laying on me half asleep (she NEVER does that), it was just really amazing!

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My mom came down with us to Cali to help with watching Mira while I worked and Dave was occupied. It was nice having her with us and I know it made Mira happy. Flying with Mira is definitely a joint effort at this point, so it was nice to have her with us on the flight down when Dave was already in LA.

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One of my favorite parts about Disneyland are the treats and we tried a few new ones this time. I was ALL about the slushies, this was actually my second of the day (the first one I didn’t snap a pic of, but it was orange-lemonade and it was delicious).

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My mom tried the grey stuff, and apparently the dishes were correct, it’s delicious.

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Here’s a list of all the other things we had that I didn’t snap a picture of: Frito Pie (this is an off menu item that you can ask for at the refreshment corner – Dave reports it’s delicious), Clam Chowder Bread Bowl (I may have ate mine and Daves), Mickey Macaroons (OMG, so delicious), Jack Skellington Cake Pop (not my fav – too much white chocolate), and as always Pooh Sandwich (I think they renamed it Mickey Sandwich, but I’ll always know it as the Pooh Sandwich) – old picture for memories.

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I’d say Mira’s absolute favorite part of Disneyland was the characters, but it was perfect because she’s not at an age where she could say “I want to wait in line an hour to get their signature.” It was more of a, if we saw them we saw them, if not then who cares. When she saw Pooh she was in heaven, the funny part is it was really her first time seeing Winnie the Pooh (we didn’t even get to ride the ride because it was closed), she just really has an intense love of visually stimulating stuffed animals (aka ELNO!!!).

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I’m not going to lie to you, there was a lot of apprehension about taking our 16-month-old to Disneyland, and while I’m not saying it’s something everyone should do, I do think that it really depends on your child. Mira had a great time, and I have no ragrats!

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I’m excited for the time that we can go to Disney and Mira can form full sentences to tell us about what she’s seeing and how she feels about it!!!

Be well.

Addams Family Themed Halloween Costume

IMG_7838.jpgThis is our first year doing a family themed costume and we had so much fun that it is going to become a tradition! I don’t quite remember what got us thinking about this costume theme; however, it was definitely the Wednesday braids that confirmed our choice.

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There was definitely NO DIY with this costume or any of the costumes in our theme this year (maybe for future costumes); however, with clever scouring of our closets we were able to assemble most of the costumes with items we already owned. Here’s a list of items we needed to purchase for Wednesday’s costume:

  • Black crochet braids – Mira’s pretty good about keeping things on her head, but I also think that the fact that it is essentially a hat made it a lot easier to keep it on her head at most points in the evening.
  • Black and white dress – This dress is made of such a comfy material, it was easy to get on and she seemed comfortable all evening.

Things we already had:

  • Black tights
  • Black shoes – we used her cons, and I mean, who can resist a toddler in converse

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We were originally going to be in Seattle for Halloween, so Dave would have felt a little more comfortable temperature wise in a full suit; however, we were in southern California so he got pretty hot early on. Here’s the list of items we purchased for Gomez Addams:

  • Fake hand – I regret not bringing our velcro strips to attach the hand to his suit, but aw well, Mira had fun carrying it at times.
  • Hair dye – Dave reports that this stuff made him super warm! Although, we thought it looked perfect and was really easy to wash out. Maybe the warmth would have been welcomed in the PNW.

Things we already had on hand:

  • Black suit
  • Tie
  • Black shoes

IMG_0792Failed at getting pictures of my costume, but this one was towards the end of the evening when I had changed shoes. Originally I was wearing heals, but clearly I am no longer at the point in my life when heels on halloween work for me. I made it to the end of the block before switching to mules. We didn’t need to purchase anything for my costume, here’s what we used that we had on hand:

  • Black velvet dress – This was the bridesmaids dress I wore for my cousin’s wedding. Ironically I was as far along in Mira’s pregnancy as I am in this pregnancy now.
  • Black heels – These heels are so old AND from target, it may be time for me to get a new pair of tried and true black heels.
  • Crucifix necklace – This was my nonna’s.
  • White face paint – I couldn’t find the exact one I used, but the bottle looked very similar to this one.
  • Black lip stick

I will add that if we would have been in the PNW for Halloween I probably would have purchased a black fur coat, so it ended up working out great for my costume that we were in the warmth!

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It made me happy that there were very few ‘one time use’ items that we had to purchase. I’m already thinking of what costume Mira will be when we use her dress on baby number two in a couple years 🙂

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It was so much fun putting together our theme this year and it got me pumped for what we are going to do in the future. Stay tuned for future themes. Hope you had a great Halloween!

Be well

Friday Faves

Hey everyone, just popping in with a few of my Friday favorites! Many of these will be food related because, well, food. There may also be a special “Mira’s Favorite” in there. Hope you enjoy 🙂

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  • I almost bought a costco size pack of Ferrero Rocher, but I’m glad I opted for the normal size. This one is usually a Christmas treat, but about a month ago Dave brought me home a little packet of them and now I crave them all the time! If I’m being honest I’ve also been trying to track down Cadbury eggs, but I think it’s seriously too early for that sitch.

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  • This pillow has made a comeback in my life, it makes sleep enjoyable again!

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  • I have been really turned off by coffee for a long while now and I really really miss it. I love the ritual of having a cup of coffee in the morning, but I can’t even remember the last time I had one with my breakfast. In the beginning of this pregnancy I turned towards tea, and now I’m addicted and have a cup a day. Because I’ve also been obsessed with pumpkin (#basic), I tried the Trader Joe’s pumpkin rooibos and it’s everything I’ve wanted and more.

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  • In other beverage related news, I’ve also been into hot chocolate. Again, I almost made an impulse Costco sized purchase, but held back and then found this lovely little yum yum spot at Ross’s Dress For Less (gotta love finding food items at a home goods store).

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  • Celebrating four years of love with the most amazing man ever.

And now it’s time for Mira’s favorites…

  • PAPA!!!! I’m not the only one that’s got this guy as a favorite this week. Lately Mira has been all about sitting in her papa’s lap, chasing him around the house, and having him hold her. It makes my heart melt, mostly because I love this guy so much and when I see her love him I think ‘she get’s it, he’s the best!’

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  • “ELNO!!!!!!!!!!” We love Elmo around these parts, he sleeps with Mira at nap time, he is in her arms all around the house and he gets to sit in her puppy chair (which is kind of a big deal). I do recast the correct production, but I’m having my first ever speech therapist struggle where I love the cute incorrect production! Plus I know it’s a close enough approximation and the reason it’s happening is because she’s accurately getting the /l/ sound, so yay for that! Wow, maybe you guys didn’t want to hear all that??? Side note, now I’m trying to convince Dave we need a trip to Sesame place!!!!!

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That’s it for now, have a great weekend!

Be well.

Let Me Tell You About The Period Of Purple Crying

This is a topic I’ve been meaning to write about since July 16th 2017. You may be wondering why I have such a specific date in mind, and that is because July 16th was the day that Mira entered her ‘Period of Purple Crying’ Of course, we were in denial about it for a good long while. It wasn’t until we were out of it that we really determined what we had experienced. Before I talk about this really difficult experience and a hard thing that my baby girl, her dad and myself had to go through, let me share a couple REALLY cute photos of her…

DSC_0039.JPGNow the reason I chose this photo is intentional. It’s because in Mira’s 15 months of life I can count on one hand the amount of times she has fallen asleep on me without crying, for some extended period of time, beforehand. This moment was beautiful, she was tired, she fell asleep, and that was it.  I definitely savored the three times it happened.

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But I digress, because although I believe sleep (without intense crying) is harder for a purple baby, that’s just my own experience speaking not scientific fact. And after months of sleep training Mira is an AMAZING sleeper (on her own, in the dark, with a noise machine)

Alright, back to the topic at hand. First off I want to explain what the ‘Period of Purple Crying’ is. Previously the term ‘colic’ has been used to describe many babies that go through this period; however, there is now a shift because ‘colic’ can lead people to believe something is ‘wrong’ with the baby or that there is an ‘illness’ present. Often medicine is prescribed to ‘colic’ babies and that creates this cycle of thinking ‘something is wrong.’

The ‘Period of Purple Crying’ can starts around 2 weeks of age and can last until 3-4 months. The characteristics of this period are described by the acronym “PURPLE.”

P: Peak of Crying – your baby may cry more and more each week peaking at 2 months and getting better over the next 3-4 months.

U: Unexpected – crying can come and go and you don’t know why.

R: Resists Soothing – no MATTER what you try.

P: Pain-like face – may make a face that looks like in pain when in fact they are not.

L: Long lasting – crying can last up to 5 hours a day or more.

E: Evening – your baby may cry more in the late afternoon or evening.

I remember taking a class through Swedish and being told about “Purple crying” and I didn’t think very much about it, Dave and I even watched the short video that tried to describe what the experience feels like. Still nothing. I think it’s because you want to believe that when your baby arrives you’ll be able to handle the crying and that there will be things that you can do about it. For some babies this is definitely the case, and for others there is no amount of soothing that can help.

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The problem with believing that there is something you can do (remember the acronym, 5 or more hours a day, nothing you do will console them) is that you are caught in a cycle of thinking ‘what am I doing wrong?’ I also remember feeling trapped because the crying could come on anywhere at anytime. I couldn’t make it around greenlake for a walk with friends because at some point Mira would start screaming and would scream all the way home.

I often hear from people, ‘I would just let them cry,’ and I would say that I was right there with you, PRIOR to having Mira. There is a reason people don’t want to sit on an airplane next to a crying baby. It is torture. Couple that with the fact that this is YOUR human that you are suppose to be able to soothe and comfort. It is unlike anything else.

I want to jump back to the term ‘colic’ again, because I think it’s important to talk about the things we tried when we thought ‘something was wrong.’ At the one month appointment we were told that we could try probiotics to help her build healthy gastrointestinal functioning (which is often thought to be the ailment that plagues colic babies). We were vigilant to no avail, we still give her probiotics frequently. At the two month appointment we were told it might be reflux (another problem source for colic babies); however, 1.5 weeks into that medication Mira began throwing up every time we gave it to her and there was no change in her level of crying. It was at that point where the doctor really talked to us about this period that we might be going through.

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Dave and I reflect back on things like our PEPs group meetings and how even being a part of a parenting group felt isolating because it felt like no one could relate to what we were experiencing. I have some very empathetic friends, and I do believe they have heard me and care about us. But prior to having Mira I NEVER would have understood, I would have thought, ‘well maybe there’s something your not trying’ or ‘are you kidding? there are so many people DYING to have a baby and you’re complaining that yours cries!?’ Now that I’ve lived it I know it’s not complaining, it’s about surviving, so you can be okay and you can TRY and help your baby be okay. It was also hard interacting with other parents because it felt like we got a lot of judgement when we would share our experience and we didn’t know if they had a baby that didn’t go through that period, they weren’t being honest about how hard it was, or they just didn’t even realize that they were in that period. Everyone copes with things differently.

I often find in life that leading up to something I dread doing it, even if it’s something excited, I’d rather stay in the comfort (or discomfort) of my current state and not move. For example, when Mira was 3 months old (in the thick of her crying – I should say hers went from 4 weeks – 4.5 months) my good friend invited me for a baby sleep over (she had just had her baby too). For the whole day leading up I was slightly dreading it, not because I don’t love my friend, but because Mira had cried a LOT that day and I wasn’t sure I could make it (mentally). In fact, on the drive over I nearly lost it, I made this video.

I share this video with you for three reasons, because 1.) I’m a very transparent person, I think we should share the good, the bad and the ugly with people, even on social media. In fact I think if we did we would be more united and less competitive (especially women) with eachother. 2.) This is what I sound like when I’m running on very little sleep, with a baby that cries hours and hours daily and I’m just trying to cope 3.) The last part of the video is my favorite, because no matter how frustrated a parent is, if they think something is wrong with their baby they will bust an illegal u turn on 25th by the IMA to check and make sure their baby is okay.

I made it over to my friends house that night, and Mira had one of the best sleeps she had had in her 3 months of life. I woke up and had a cup of coffee and then my friend and I walked to a nearby restaurant. It was such a lovely time.

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One of the things that they say about purple crying, is that the word period is used for a reason, because it has an end! When you’re in the thick of it you feel like you won’t survive, but it will be over. Unfortunately I do have some PTSD. I find that the first minute of Mira’s cry now does make my heart start pounding and I find that I have to take a few deep breaths to really calm down. Sometimes that doesn’t help, and I turn to Dave and say ‘pizza time’ (our code word for when we need the other person to take over entirely, no questions asked), and that’s the only thing that helps.

I do remember when it ended though, it was quite monumental. We had planned a trip down to California to introduce Mira to quite a bit of Dave’s family and to enjoy Thanksgiving in a warm place. The trip began with Mira falling asleep on the plane while we carried her (without crying beforehand), it was a shock to both of us.

IMG_4821.jpgOf course we didn’t fully believe we were out of the woods until around Christmas time. I think that’s when it became clear that the period had past and it truly sunk in that more of the day was happy and less was spent crying.

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I’m going to tell you some things that helped me get through this period of purple crying. You all know my feelings on unsolicited advice, so know that I’m not giving advice to any moms out there, just telling you what worked for me. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF when you can. For me taking care of myself looked like eating healthy, exercising and taking breaks (and we are talking 100% away breaks) from baby. During the period of purple crying I couldn’t take Mira to the YMCA childcare because they would come and get me during my workout saying she was inconsolably crying and it was traumatizing (plus I knew I’d be going home and she would be inconsolably crying for me). What I was able to do was utilize the nanny we had for when I was working to get workouts in as well as when dave was home, force myself to go out for those runs or open the Jillian app. It’s helpful that Dave and I love to cook because it motivated us to focus on healthy recipes with whole foods, but there are so many useful options out there now (blue apron, hello fresh, etc.) that can really help you get those healthy foods into your life easily. Lastly, complete breaks away from baby were sooo essential for me, over thanksgiving break Dave took Mira a couple times to visit his family while I went to the spa and Disneyland with my family and those were awesome. There were definitely other breaks both by myself and with friends/family, but those ones in Southern California were so great that they stick out in my mind.  I think the time apart makes the time together even sweeter. I definitely feel that aside from my slight PTSD I have healed from this difficult period, but I will never forget this tough time that we all went through together and that’s okay, because “happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the lights” (Albus Dumbledore).

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One of the things that I think about is if this has any long term implications for our little boo boo. I haven’t read a lot of information on this, but I’ve heard anecdotally that anxiety may be a difficulty for babies who had really difficult periods of purple crying. Currently she does not show any signs of anxiety; however, I will definitely be on the look out for indications of an underlying complication that may impact her ability to enjoy life to the fullest. I know some really kick ass early interventionists that, should this be the case, can help her out (prevention over rehabilitation). For now I’m just going to enjoy my beautiful, funny, social, spicy, amazing daughter and all the wonder that she brings to our lives.

If you have any questions about (what I know of) the ‘period of purple crying,’ my experience during this time, or specific things that transpired for us please feel free to ask.

Be well.

 

Cinnamon Buns

I have to admit that I’m a sucker for a good nordic concept that gives me the warm fuzzies. First it was hygge, and now it’s ‘Lagom,’ the concept of ‘not too little, not too much.’ I completely devoured Niki Brantmark’s book.

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It is now sitting in our living room (it helps that the cover is adorable) and the other day I was flipping through and came across a yummy looking cinnamon bun recipe. Moment of baking inspiration + Mira’s nap time = time for some cinnamon buns!

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There is just something about pouring flour into a bowl that really gets me. The *thunk* once it hits the bottom. The incomparable softness. I would love to lay in a pool full of flour.

dsc_0049.jpg Butter….not so much. I really dislike working with butter. Once it’s softened it sticks to my hands and the knife. I never feel as though I’m ‘cubing’ it quite right.

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Somehow, the dough ball is created.

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I can definitely find some beauty in every step of the process. Although, not when I dropped the bottle of rice vinegar and it smashed all over the floor.

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Mira woke up at some point, but she was happy to hang out while I baked (gotta love her growing autonomy).

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Cinnamon Buns

  • Servings: 10-12
  • Difficulty: medium
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BUNS

2 c flour

1/4 c fine sugar

1/8 c active dried yeast

1/4 tsp salt

1/3 c butter, cubed

1 c warm milk

1 egg, beaten

FILLING

1/3 c melted butter

1/3 brown sugar

2-3 tbsp ground cinnamon

GLAZE (optional)

1 c powdered sugar

1.5 tbsp milk

INSTRUCTIONS

  1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees.
  2. In a mixing bowl combine dry ingredients, then mix in butter with dough hook.
  3. Add the milk slowly while mixing the dough until it appears sticky. If it is too wet add a small bit of flour.
  4. Cover and allow to rise for an hour.
  5. Place dough on floured surface and knead for 5 minutes. Roll into rectangular shape until about 1/2″ thick.
  6. Brush the dough with melted butter and sprinkle with sugar and cinnamon.
  7. Roll the dough on the long side and cut into about 1″ thick pieces. Spray a baking tray and place cut-side up on tray with a good amount of space between. Cover and allow to rise for 45 minutes.
  8. Brush buns with beaten egg and bake for 15 minutes (my oven required 20) or until the buns are golden.
  9. Remove from oven and allow to cool.
  10. (optional) Whisk powdered sugar and milk to make glaze, pour over buns.

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Be well.

Sunday Style IX

I’ve got some exciting news……. ‘Sunday Style’ is back!!! I’ve definitely missed doing these posts, and one of my yearly goals was to get back into doing posts that really bring me joy!

I’ve mentioned my love of capsule wardrobes before on the blog, and I worked hard to create another capsule for this summer. I might try to put together a post on what my fall capsule will look like this year, but as for summer I never got a chance. I’m happy with it so far, and I’m extremely happy that (after a lot of hard work) I was able to reuse quite a few pieces from previous capsules.

To remind you all why I fell in love with the idea of a capsule wardrobe, I’ll share with you a few of the principals that really resonate with me:

  • Keep it seasonal – this way when I go into my closet I can wear ALL the items, not just half.  This doesn’t mean getting rid of ‘out of season items’ it just means storing them until it’s their time.
  • Keep it minimal – I get overwhelmed when there are too many pieces in my closet, and I find I feel like I have more options when I have less items (weird, but true)
  • Save the planet – okay, this ones a little bit much, but it’s absolutely true.  How much clothing you go through is just as impactful on the environment as other kinds of waste. To find out more check out this article.
  • Save time – this one is more important to me now than ever. I don’t have as much time to pick out my outfits, so it’s great to have some of the planning taken out for me.

There are other great reasons to do a capsule wardrobe. I get very inspired by this blogger, so check her out!


On to my 2018 summer capsule. One of the items that I really wanted to add to my capsule was a jumpsuit. I guess maybe I was getting a little jealous of Mira’s jumpsuit

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I decided to go for black over her psychedelic colors.

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I found this jump suit at Lulu’s, they definitely have a ton of great options in the jumpsuit department.

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It’s extremely comfortable and I’m very happy to have added this piece.

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I still want to do a ‘Sunday Style’ with Dave, and now I think I’ll have to do one with Mira. I’ve been working on her capsule wardrobe (kids clothes can get just as over whelming when there are too many pieces).

Be well.

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