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Mira is one!

Last Saturday miss Mirabella Emma turned 365 days old. It was funny, I woke up at 4:21am and thought to myself, ‘it was almost this time exactly last year that I was grabbing our little girl and putting her on my chest.’

This year has been a wild ride, and Mira you have taught me so much about myself and this world we live in. I’m working my way closer and closer to a growth mindset. Everyone in my world is pushing me to grow as a human and sometimes it is hard, but that doesn’t mean it’s bad.

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Mira celebrated her first birthday surrounded by some friends and with funfetti cake, and she was simply in heaven!

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Since our last update Mira has had a few firsts:

-Visit to the zoo

-3 hour nap (it was glooooorious for both of us)

-Race day (Mira walked 7.6 miles during bloomsday with her aunt, uncle, and nonna)

-Extended trip from her papa

-Night away from mama

-Pee pee and poo poo in her potty (we’ve been doing some mild EC….before Mira came into the world I wanted to do it from the beginning, but it was all I could do to just survive those first 6 months with sad Mira. Now that she’s happier with life we feel like we can try it out a bit 🙂

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When talking about Mira’s firsts I’ve been trying my best to steer clear of ‘developmental milestones’ because the only people that really need to be aware of them are Mira, Dave, myself and her pediatrician. I’ve observed some parents become really anxious/concerned when sitting around with others’ talking about whose kid is crawling/standing/walking/sitting up/eating this/eating that (and I was victim of the worry as well). Since that bout of worrying, specifically about crawling, I realized that it was all this talk and comparing that was holding me back from really enjoying who Mira was in that moment, regardless of what she could or could not do. Not to mention that it’s good to get out of the habit of verbally comparing her to anyone else, she doesn’t need to be hearing/doing that. I get that it can be hard though, especially if you’re having serious concerns about your child’s development, and in that case maybe sharing with other people is the best. I just feel that it was taking away from my life rather than adding to it (every child is different, and every parent is different as well….NO judgement).

IMG_6311.jpgI have to say that I am 100% thankful for my family, friends and this blog (oh, and my therapist) because they have all been a place for me to externalize the ups and downs of this last year. I feel grateful that I am able to share all this with the world, because it’s important that people see the good and the bad on social media (it’s not all flowers and sausages). Plus I just feel like when we experience the world as it is rather than trying to construct a world as we think it should be, we are able to heal and accept ourselves and others as they are.

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**note the Oliver licking his junk in this photo**

Mira and Oliver have really been enjoying playing with each other, I believe if she could say it, dogs would be her favorite animal. She waves ‘hello’ to every dog we see. She has a specific utterance that sounds like ‘Oliver,’ it’s basically just the intonation, and it’s extremely cute!!!

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I can’t even put into words how much happiness this little girl has brought into my world. Dave and I were extremely excited to meet our little girl when she was still inside me, but I have to admit that I was also very nervous. Nervous because my love for Dave is so deep/hard that I was concerned about how this third person would integrate into our family unit. Well I tell you what folks, this little girl has made me love Dave even more, and I feel like everyday I am just so looking forward to things we will be doing together.

This year Dave celebrated his first father’s day, and I celebrated my first mother’s day and it was everything we ever thought it could be. Dave’s mom was in town and we enjoyed a brunch out (complete with endless bloody marys).

IMG_E6405.JPG Mira’s face says all that needs to be said about endless bloody marys.

Mira’s been really into dancing lately so we’ve been really enjoying some daily dance parties.

It’s been an amazing year, and I’m so glad I could share it with you all and create this virtual memorabilia for Mira. Stay tuned for year two of Mira’s life, probably not with as frequent updates, but updates nonetheless.

Be well.

Mira’s 4 months!

Well, I missed three months, so this will really be a recap of Mira’s third and fourth months of life.

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Our little bean is extremely adorable, especially between the hours of 7am-5pm. It can get a little shady anytime after 5pm, see this video to find out just how Mira’s doing at 3am.

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Our little girl currently enjoys:

-Balls

-Hitting her toys with her feet

-Whenever her nonna says “piccanina de la nonna”

-Her good night stories for rebel girls (we read 2-3 a night before bed)

-Her night time songs: “You are my sunshine” “Baby mine” “Golden slumbers”

-Water (pool, bath, shower)

-Other people/babies

-The dogs

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She also really enjoys dancing

Mira’s dislikes:

-5pm or later (as I mentioned before)

-She continues to hate sleep, outside of the first couple of weeks of her life, she really hasn’t fallen asleep without some level of tears.

-Loud laughing (cue my anxiety ****sensory disorder?!?!?!!!****)

-Tummy time – we do it anyways, but man does she hate it. Oliver sure makes it more appealing.

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Oliver isn’t so sure. I think it may be jealousy, but it’s not about her it’s more about her toys….

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Mira experienced two big firsts this month:

-Swimming

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-Pumpkin Patch

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both were so much fun!!

These last couple months have had there ups and downs (we made sure to get footage of both so Mira knows the good, the bad, and the ugly), but it has definitely been so amazing to see Mira laugh and really interact. Her personality is really shining through and it’s been so fun!


As you probably saw in my previous post my nonna passed away a couple weeks ago. Last week we went back to the town where I was born and attended her funeral. It was a really hard time, but it was also really nice to see family.

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Nonna got Mira the jacket and cap and I thought she looked really cute in it!

We miss nonna every day, but I’m just so happy that there’s a little nonna in me and my mom and everyone in my family and we can share that with Mira.

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Be well.

Pump and Post I

You can thank Dave for that creative title 😉 I have a feeling it might turn into a recurring theme so I’m making this the first installation.

So now that you know what I’m up to atm, I thought I’d fill you in on the last little bit of my life. Something about the number three is sticking in my head today so I’m going to share three things from a few categories of my life.

Favorite Third Trimester Workouts:

I. Body Pump – Up until week 39 I was able to do 2 body pump classes a week and it felt great! The energy that lifting gave me was so helpful and I think it definitely helped me through my labor.

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II. Walking – It’s been a family tradition to complete bloomsday every year and I wasn’t going to let pregnancy hold me back from that. It was the slowest bloomsday I’ve done yet and I had to stop four times after mile 5 due to some horrible cramps (TMI, but I was having some digestive issues that I believe added to the difficulty), but I DID IT!

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III. Spin – It’s interesting how the difficulty of spin evolved throughout the pregnancy. During the second trimester I felt some pain in my hip flexors and then in the third trimester it became hard to sit on the seat. It was never too painful to do though and I’m proud of myself for getting myself to classes up until the very end.

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Baby Shower: 6/3/2017

I. Friends – Thank you to these ladies for throwing an amazing baby shower (and to my mama, who also helped out a TON but I didn’t get a photo with her)

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2. Cugina – Kate helped from afar by getting this beautiful cake, she was missed for sure, but the cake was delicious! Also, did you see the donuts? My mom and friends know me so well 🙂

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III. Shower dress – In general I haven’t LOVED Target’s maternity section but I found this dress and it was amazingly comfy and pretty cute!

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Labor: 6/15/17-6/16/17

I. My labor team – Dave was an amazing support during labor. Him, my doula, and the labor and delivery nurse really helped me through it all.

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II. Partial drug free labor – Though it didn’t go exactly as planned I worked so hard for a drug free labor and I’m proud to say that outside of a few doses of fentanyl I stuck to it. My nurses face (Pauletta was literally the BEST) says it ALL! I am also proud to say that I was the loudest person in labor that night 🙂

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III. Dave’s tears – If you know me then you know I’m a crier, but I guess I don’t cry at major life events (e.g., weddings, child birth). But I love that my husband does, I’m so happy Mira will grow up knowing a man that shows all his emotions.

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Mira In The Hospital:

I. The Five A.M. Crew – Mira was born at 4:23am on Friday June 16th, so need I say more about the people who stayed up until five a.m. to meet our new little human. Nonna brought the nurse’s donuts too, she’s the besht!

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II. Family of three – Although I felt I could have left the hospital in the evening on Friday they had us stay until Saturday. It ended up being nice spending those first 24 hours in our little hospital room nook with my newly expanded family.

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III. Watching the love of my life become a dad – people talk about how amazing this is all the time and they definitely aren’t exaggerating.

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Favorite Post-Partum Items:

I. First Forty Days – This book is amazing. It is primarily a recipe book and everything Dave has made so far has been delicious, I’m just so glad that he’s always enjoyed nourishing me with his amazing culinary skills. I have also really enjoyed the lifestyle portion of the book. They talk about the Chinese traditions/philosophies for the first forty days post-partum and all that goes into setting yourself up for the best healing possible. I highly recommend it!

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II. Belly Bandit – I haven’t had it officially diagnosed yet but based on self assessment I experienced some diastasis recti, which is when your rectus abdominis separate due to the tissue thinning. Although the belly bandit has not been scientifically proven to bring the muscles back together (I’ll be doing my deep core workouts to help promote that) it feels good to wear it and I feel it has helped assist my uterus in contracting and bringing my belly in.

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III. Nipple Whip – This stuff is literally the best, the end.

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Mira’s First Few Weeks:

I. Holding her ciuccio – I mean when it’s you and your chooch against the world you gotta hold it tight!

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II. Fisher Price Rock ‘N Play – Mira really enjoys sleeping in this thing, of course she prefers being held (who doesn’t???) but this thing has been really nice for naps.

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III. First Bath – the actual bath was a real upset for little Mira, but I really wanted you to see the adorable towel picture when she was so relieved to be out of the water.

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Parent Judgements – I have to preface this one with my love for growing as a person and admitting/working on my faults. Before becoming a parent there were silly things that I looked at and judged, now that I’ve lived it I definitely still have some judgements 😉 but there are a few things that I have a better understanding of, so here they are:

I. Riding in the backseat with your baby – I have no idea why I hated seeing parents do this, but now I know that in the first few weeks of your babies life it’s hard not to want to ride with them. For me it had to do with anxiety about how she was sitting in the car seat. People like to say shit like “Oh just wait, the worrying only gets worst” but I have to say that for me the level of anxiety has decreased in just the last week of getting used to her. Also, I can’t wait until I can work out again (which ALWAYS helps me with my anxiety).

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II. Bed Sharing – I understand why it’s not for everyone and why it wouldn’t be safe in all situations; however, it works for our family and it’s so nice to get 4-5 hour stretches of sleep 🙂

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III. Okay, so Dave and I have been sitting here for the past five minutes trying to think of another one and I can’t think of anything. I turned to him and said “I don’t think there is a third one,” he laughed and said, “it’s just that you judge so much.” HAHA my husband knows me.

So I’ll leave you with a few pictures of Mira meeting her nonno, nonna, and grandma.

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Be well.

 

Pregnancy Thus Far And A Week In Workouts

This pregnancy has been an up and down of emotions. At times I feel blessed that we made it through such a tumultuous time and have been able to carry this baby thus far and then other times I’m an emotional wreck, feeling guilty about any negative feelings I have towards the pregnancy and how it has impacted my body. I try to allow myself all feelings, but the guilt creeps in at times. I’ve found there are a few things that can help me get through it and I thought I’d share them on the blog so other people who may be experiencing pregnancy after loss (or just similar guilty feelings) can find solace in knowing A. They’re not alone and B. There are things that help.

1. Gratitude. One of the strategies I have utilized to keep a peaceful frame of mind is gratitude. I’m grateful for a. being able to have this baby b. the love and support I have in my partner c. that I live in an amazing city with so many amazing opportunities for myself and my family d. that I have a home e. that I have friends and family that I love f. that I have health care (fucking Trump) g. that I love my job. And honestly the list goes on and on. When I’m feeling down I start running through the list of things I’m grateful for and it really does help.

2. Healthy eating. I feel that throughout this pregnancy I have been able to eat a healthy balance of 80/20. I can’t imagine never indulging in those things that your pregnant body desires (in my case Cadbury egg, popsicles/slushies, doughnuts <–okay this one might not be pregnancy hehehe), but I’m extremely head strong about maintaining a balance with healthy foods. Here are some of my faves so far:

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Avocado toast, banana almond butter toast.

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Sauteed spinach.

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Savory eggy oats.

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Smoothie bowl.

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Whole foods salad.

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Bagel with cottage cheese cucumbers and tomato.

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Brown rice with Kale and egg.

3. Hydration. I’ve also been sure to drink 80-100oz of water a day. This has kept a lot of the negative symptoms at bay and I’m so happy about that.

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4. Finding inspiration. I’ve been inspired by so many bloggers in general during the last 4 years that it was intuition to start finding those who had given birth. I love reading the Hungry Runner Girl, Peanut Butter Fingers, and The Fitnessista. On Instagram I recently found Hayley Bolton’s account and she is so REAL and inspiring. I also follow Knocked Up Fitness on IG (I have her DVDs too), which lead me to really watch out for Diastasis Recti and see a personal trainer when I felt it had happened to me (Thanks Erica!). Lastly, I follow Natalie Jill Fit on Facebook (I’m rarely on facebook now but she has great videos). These women do not sugar coat things, they are women that have worked hard after pregnancy/delivery (with things not always going smoothly) and it is truly inspiring.

5. Hiring a doula. The doula has already been such a great support. I had some pretty intense sciatic nerve pain and she had some great suggestions for how to sleep at night that would help and it completely has! She also gave me an acupressure point for anxiety/sleep, and has shown me some dance moves to help alleviate that ‘full’ feeling that happens near the end of the day.

6. Working out. Ever since my first pregnancy I found that the times I felt the best were when I was working out. But this has rung true even more so during this pregnancy. At the beginning of the pregnancy the nurses/doctors at the high risk clinic advised me to keep my workouts easy (which was a real bummer), but as soon as I hit 12 weeks and went to a regular OB I was cleared to do my normal thing. I’m so proud of myself that I’ve gotten in 5-6 workouts a week and I don’t feel like I’ll be stopping any time soon. My workouts have consisted of: Body pump, Spin, Mixxed Fit dance, Kettle bells, walks, and hikes.  It’s crazy how I can be sitting on the couch and think ‘my hips hurt and maybe I shouldn’t go workout,’ but once I’m at the gym doing it my hips feel much better.

I spoke with my doctor again yesterday and she was very happy that I’m able to engage in this level of activity, she wants me to keep going for as long as I can. A lot of things change during pregnancy and if this can be something that stays consistent and can help me recover afterwards then this is something that definitely makes me happy when I’m feeling down on myself.

I wanted to share what week 32/33 in workouts looks like for pregnant Nicole:

1. Thursday, April 27th was a 45 minute spin class. Forgot my watch, so you get a picture of the bike instead.

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2. Friday April 28th was an hour and a half walk with Dave (prepping for Bloomsday), we got a little bit of jogging in there.

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3. Saturday, April 29th was suppose to be a Body Pump class, but I got such little sleep Friday night that I decided to sleep past my 7am alarm and do a 45 minute workout from Erica Ziel’s Prenatal Sculpt DVD. I love these things, they are a really great work out!

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4. Sunday April 30th (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME) was a sweaty spin class.

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5. Monday, May 1st was a rest day. I took the boys out for walks, but kept it really minimal because my body definitely needed a break.

6. Tuesday, May 2nd was another great spin session.

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7. Wednesday, May 3rd was time for some weight lifting at Body Pump.

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My goal has been to get 3-4 days of cardio a week and 2 days of weight training, and so far so good. I’m taking advantage of this time when my body feels good and I feel like I can get out the door and do it. If there comes a time when my body says no, then I will listen, but thankfully it continues to love these workouts.

So now you’ve heard what’s been getting me through the ups and downs of pregnancy, hope it’s helpful to anyone having similar feelings.

Be well!

Baby Moon At Willows Inn

A couple weekends back Dave and I celebrated our baby moon at Willows Inn on Lummi Island and I never want to forget that place. It was extremely relaxing, the food was delicious, and it was a perfect way to get time alone together before we become three. Just a heads up that there a TON of photos coming your way, I’m going to keep the descriptions to a minimum (the photos really do speak for themselves).

DAY I

We arrived on Friday, checked in, and made our way to our room.

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The grounds were beautiful!

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We stayed in the “Cottage,” which is quite aptly named as it is essentially a stand alone cottage.

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In the lobby they had a bunch of snacks and beverages for guests to grab and munch on, so we made some plates and ate them while enjoying the view from our porch.

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After our refuel we headed down to the beach that’s in front of the Inn and walked a bit. We were so lucky with the weather it was sunny the whole weekend!

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That night we grabbed a bite at the Beach Store Cafe (really good food – we determined that you would have to be if you were one of three restaurants on an island that included Willows Inn) and brought it back to our cottage.

DAY II

We started off Saturday with a beautiful hike. The first part of the hike included almost ALL the elevation gain, which was a little difficult, but the views along the way were worth every difficult breath. Pregnancy is so weird, you can complete an hour long spin class and not feel breathless, but try walking up a hill or stairs and man.

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Once we got to the top we saw a Bald Eagle fly by, it was awesome.

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Back at the room it was time to get ready for dinner.

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The eating area is beautiful!

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We started off with a cocktail for Dave and a mocktail for me 🙂

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Then came the food…

Toasted kale leaves

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Savory doughnuts

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Golden char roe

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Raw scallops in raw goat milk (for dave – they were really amazing about pregnancy substitutions)

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Raw clams (for Dave)

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Grilled shitake (for me)

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Shoots steamed in angelica

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That was the last dish before heading to our tables so I wandered around and snagged some photos.

#pantrygoals

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View from the porch.

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The area where they grill/smoke.

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Back to the food…

Salt roasted beets with gin yogurt (for me)

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Raw mussels in nettles (for Dave)

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Lightly-cured rockfish in a broth of grilled bones

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Reefnet caught smoked sockeye

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This was definitely our favorite, and Dave was in his happy place.

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Grilled geoduck clam and cured pork.

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Charred wild nettles.

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Herb tostada (Dave’s had an umami puree and mine had a mustard greens puree – both amazing).

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Dungeness crab soaked in pinenut milk.

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Black cod and currant leaves.

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Bread from heirloom wheat and pan drippings.

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Caramelized sunflower roots and squid

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Everyone was in need of a little break so we all got up and walked around, took some photos and enjoyed the views.

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We were then given a palate cleanser made of toasted birch branches, it reminded me of the spa.

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Quince and candied rosemary.

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Woodruff and nettles

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Pears, pumpkin seeds, flax seeds.

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On the way out they gave us more of their house made bread to enjoy later.

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Everything about the meal was perfect and delicious. We are excited to go back during a different season.

DAY III

We had massages in the afternoon on Sunday so we pretty much spent the whole morning relaxing in our cottage. We may or may not have had an easter egg hunt.

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After our massage we went on another hike and then walked along pebble beach.

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DAY IV

On our last day there we enjoyed the pre fixe breakfast that they do at the Inn.

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It started with yogurt, apple, pear butter, and granola.

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Palate cleanser (ginger, apple, pear, celery)

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I’m sorry for the upcoming blurry picture, but it was the best part of the meal so I have to include it. I think I was just so excited to eat I rushed the picture hehe.

Buckwheat crepes, sautéed kale, radish with creme fresh, bacon, salmon, prosciutto, cheese, honey, soft boiled egg.

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Pine nut biscuit.

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And then it was time to head home. We enjoyed our stay so much, but we were ready to get back to our boys and home. Such an amazing weekend, I highly recommend you visit!

Be well.

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